In a Court of Law

Royce Hall, main building of University of Cal...

Royce Hall, main building of University of California, Los Angeles (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

 

September has been an a month full of laws for me. Whether it is appearing in Man’s court on the ongoing battle to keep my son or learning about God’s law as Judaism will once again be at the forefront of my education at UCLA, I have been steeped in the study and practice of law.

 

Today I am in a court of law to make a dream of mine come true. My sister has had co guardianship pretty much since he was three. Today we are here to terminate it. I keep looking down the hall for my sister. My case is at 10:30, it is 10:09. Time is passing slowly. Is she in the right department? It is in Department 5 which happens to be on the second floor, room 236. I guess putting it on the fifth floor would make too much sense. It is 10:13, she is still not here. There are five cases before ours.

 

My heart is beating fast,which for a normal person is bad enough. However, when you add mechanical heart valves to the mix, it becomes more frightening, more nerve- wracking. I do not know why I am nervous. Maybe it is the intended thought of doing this alone.

 

It is ten thirty, we are inside the court, she has arrived and we are sixth in line. I have signed the paper work. Now I wait for what I have been waiting for forever, for my son to be mine.

 

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medications   So here I am in Olympia Hospital…again. I woke up with a sharp pain shooting up my left arm and being that I have heart problems such a sign of cardiac arrest cannot be taken lightly. So here I am being observed. In the meantime, I have gained about 10-15 pounds in the last four days. My INR was 1.5. INR is the measurement they use to see if my blood is too thin or too thick. If it is too thick I can have a stroke. If it is too thin I can bleed  out. My INR is supposed to be between 2.5 to 3.5, so 1.5 Is extremely low.

Once the weight wasn’t coming off anymore and my INR dipped I was feeling like “Oh screw it! I can’t do this!” This is not an easy road for me to walk and I have come to the conclusion I cannot do it alone. I need help. This whole trial and error approach is not working for me and it just might kill me.

So I am now on the hunt for a nutritionist that can help me lose weight while taking into account my whole INR precautions. Right now I just want to scream, cry or crawl into a hole and never come out. But I also know I can’t do that. I have to go on, giving up is not an option. There is too much at stake, most importantly the life of my son. He needs his mother.

So while it will not be smooth sailing, I have accomplished the impossible before. This will be no different.